Roll with the Changes

I posted a blog a few days ago asking for some input on some blog topics. My sister Whitney, asked how becoming a mom has changed me. I thought this would be a good blog for future reference for my kids to read.

I think it would be easier to ask what doesn't change when you become a mom. To me everything changed. From how I felt as a person to what I wore and how I presented myself. I found out I was pregnant at a young age. I was only 18 and looking back, Jeremy and I were just a couple of kids ourselves. I always knew I wanted to be a mom but didn't expect it so soon. I was scared at first. What are we going to do? How are we going to do this. Me? A mom? Huh?

Once Macie was born, my emotions immediately changed. My mom always cried 'tears of joy'. Until December 28, 2008, I never experienced so much joy that I cried. I remember sitting in the hospital room, by myself, and just a wave of emotion went over me. Overwhelming emotions. And I cried.

Having the girls gives me a whole new outlook. I know this is so cliche, but it is true. As their parent's, Jeremy and I are responsible fo raising these two children to eventually take the world on. We must teach them vlues, respect, manners... It is overwhelming if you look at it from that perspective all the time, so we have a day-to-day attitude. Tomorrow is always a new day. A fresh start.

I often wonder how people that lose a child move on with life. After having the girls, if, God forbid, something happen to both of them, my purpose would be over. I would lay in bed the rest of my life. There are certain movies Jeremy and I cannot watch, because it is too hard. I think when you watch movies, you naturally place yourself in the role of the characters. Some of those things characters go through things with their children no parent should have to experience.

I think everyone knows the emotional changes you feel once you have a child. But then there are the changes that you don't really think about. Priorities change. Jobs change - now you have to have insurance. Finances change. Your clean house will never be the same. Even your clothes change...

I used to dress up everywhere I went. Now, I am only worried about what they are wearing and by the time I get them ready, all I want to do it throw on a t-shirt, jeans and flip flops. But you know what? I am happy with that. (Plus, it's more comfortable!)

Having children affects everything, but you just roll with it because your love for them outweighs all the difficult changes. And once you have them, you could not imagine life without them. Everything is sooo worth it.

PS: I love this commercial. I actually had it TiVo'd for w hile. It is so true!